ini kalilahhh update blog bersawang!

as salam

eceh tajuk nak gempak je kan. amik tempias sikit sebab hari ni hari mengundi seluruh Malaysia. tapi tak pergi mengudi sebab status diragui. bahaha. ayatt.

status mengundi saya untuk PRU 13: taklayak untuk membuang undi walaupun berstatus pengundi berdaftar.

nak mengundi umur baru cukup-cukup aje. citt. sebenarnya since tuan punya blog ni beranak hujung tahun so dalam semangatnye baru officially nak pergi mendaftar sebagai pengundi, sekali diberitahu yang kalau nak melayakkan someone tu jadi pengundi pada PRU 13 ni, kena mendaftar sebagai pengundi sekurang-kurangnya 6 bulan sebelum hari PRU. so dihitung-hitung aku tak cukup 6 bulan tu. sedih lahh berstatus nyaris-nyaris layak ni. so kesimpulannya aku xlayak lah untuk membuang undi walaupun berstatus pengundi berdaftar. err faham ke? but harapan saya pada kali ini, supaya kerajaan baru yang dibentuk selepas pilihan raya ni oleh parti yang menang dapat menunaikan janji seperti yang terdapat dalam manifesto parti dan berbakti kepada rakyat yang telah memberi sepenuh kepercayaan kepada anda.

ok back to business.

wachaa! sebulan lebih tak hapdate blog. ya rabb. apa aku buat eh? entah lah. sorry lah kot-kot ada yang menunggu next post. currently a bit busy nak prepare for 1st professional exam. okay. punyalah lama. to start with, last April is treating me really well. ahah, last subject/block to be finished before one month break preparing for my 1st professional exam.

April ialah bulan dimana aku menghadapi subjek Disaster and Relief Medicine. aha apa benda tu? ok, basically, DRM (Disaster and Relief Medicine) ni adalah salah satu subjek di bawah silibus kami pelajar tahun 2 MBBS CUCMS, di mana kami akan belajar tentang survival hidup, dan management pesakit serta teach us on what to do if we as a medical doctors berdepan dengan situasi bencana ke, ditugaskan ke tempat-tempat perang ke dan dsb. jadi kem DRM ni macam simulated camp, yang dah dipaternkan akan jadi suasana seperti dalam ala-ala bencana dalam hutan, ada pesakit injured, ada terrorist dan melatih kami untuk stick kepada arahan ketua. dan ketua tersebut mesti cekap, dan pantas berfikir dalam situasi genting.. erm macam ala-ala perang lah juga ceritanya. 

okay, camp tahun ni buat secara julung kalinya International Disaster Exercise diadakan collaboration between CUCMS- Universitas Islam Bandung (UNISBA) bertempat di Desa Cariu, Bogor, Jawa Barat, Indonesia. 1st time buat collaboration with Indonesian medical student so that boleh share experience and all laa.

camp tu almost seminggu la. meaning, almost seminggu la kitorang semua duduk dalam hutan. dari KLIA-Jakarta naik flight lebih kurang dalam 1 jam 40 minit macam tu.so ktorang board off jam 330 petang then sampai sana around 530 petang waktu Indonesia (kat sana lewat sejam dari Malaysia) then turun kat International Airport Soekarno-Hatta, Tangerang, Jakarta, Indonesia.  from airport to campsite, Jakarta- Cariu,Bogor (ok its actually not that hutan la but its campsite tp campsite pun sumpah hutan gila lah aku rasa) it takes about 3 hours je sebenarnya. and yes, naik trak 3 tan tentera tuuu. katanya 3 jam. tapi disebabkan jalan macet (read: jammed), perjalanan 3 jam jadi 6 jam! and faham tak dalam trak tu segala position aku dh buat. baring atas beg. duduk yang sambil temengantuk-ngantuk tu. jalan yang terhinjut-hinjut. dengan gelap lagi. makan pakai headlamp wehh. hahahah. sumpah sakit badan.

ok bila dah sampai tu pulak. masa tu dah almost 12tengah malam. mujur khemah yang 1st group yang flight pukul 130ptg sampai awal and dah siap diri kan khemah dulu untuk kitorang yang perempuan ni. alhamdulillah. ok tidur lah sebab masing-masing dah capek (read: penat)

next day merupakan exercise Aquatic Life Support. okay hari ni belajar macam mana basic steps on how to swim. belajar teknik menyelamat di dalam air either menyelamatkan orang yang lemas ataupun cara handle cervical injury dalam air.

itu cerita pagi. petang. sempat buat exercise and presentation on how to deal in Emergency Evacuation. then malam tu sepatutnya cultural night kitorang dengan student UNISBA, but malam tu hujan lebat sangat. dan dipostpone ke malam berikutnya. malam tu just bersantai di gazebo. santai bendenyer, berhimpit lah jugak kat gazebo tu. and yes, kena tidur kat gazebo since khemah bocor sebab salah pasang, diruntuhkan dan didirikan semula, namun masih sahaja khemah kebasahan akibat kehujanan. tidur di gazebo ibarat pelarian. jalan becak sebab hujang and tiap-tiap hari laluan pendakian yang licin dan becak harus gagah didaki demi kelangsungan mandi dan merapikan diri. 

Bogor yang juga dikenali sebagai Kota Hujan (Rain City), sememangnya menyambut kehadiran kami selama di sana dengan hujan yang turun mencurah-curah tiada henti selama berada di Desa Cariu,Jawa Barat. 

the next day. ok malam tu ada Emergency Evacuation exercise. Emergency Evacuation exercise dalam simulasi penculikan pengganas sekitar jam 3 pagi macam tu melibatkan aplikasi komunikasi radio yang kitorang belajar dalam kelas sebelum ke Bogor ni. hahaha kengkonon ada orang kene culik pengganas, and pengganas tu speak arabic, (yes Mr Said alGhora is one of the CUCMS lecturer from Palestine and follow this exercise as one of the instructor, and dia kena berlakon jadi pengganas) kena la pulak cari orang yang pandai cakap Arab nak buat dealing dengan pengganas. 

then bila dah siang ada aktiviti merekabentuk base camp ketika dalam bencana, nak tentukan setting hospital,logistics, dan segala macam mak nenek lagilah benda for the next day punya disaster mockdrill exercise regarding tanah gelongsor. malam tu we had our cultural night with the UNISBA students. sangat lah bestt. hahaha. moment bersama-sama pelajar dari Universitas Islam Bandung was one the best moment ever in my life.

sedih, nak marah, mental kepala otak, rasa nak give up, namun setiap hari telinga disajikan dengan tazkirah tentang bencana dan ujian yang dicedok dari al-Quran secara langsung mengingatkan tujuan dan memperbetulkan niat selama berada di sana. memang ini ujian buat kami semua selama berada disana. real disaster. sesuailah dengan nama camping pun. tp mujur alhamdulillah semua orang kuat semangat, and I was counting the days very hard tak sabar nak balik Malaysia. 

okay, hari kemuncak adalah pada hari ke-4 kitorang, which is the day of disaster mock drill exercise. ada satu simulated situation  dimana ada diaster tanah runtuh berlaku. and each of us had to play our role as the casualties, police to control the crowds (villagers and media) and hospital setting and (doctors and nurses) as well as team triage, paramedic and transporter.  

ok secara mudahnya, flow dia macam ni. bila berlaku disaster (Mass Casualty Incident - MCI), Incident Command System (ICS) will be activated. usually ketua polis (bergantung kepada disaster yang berlaku at district/state/national level) yang akan jadi Commander Officer. dia akan hantar team polis as pasukan peninjau untuk ke lokasi kejadian dan assess the situation and mark kawasan disaster as kawasan yang tak sewenang-wenangnya orang awam dan media buat liputan yang tak berkenaan daripada masuk. then polis akan call team triage and paramedic untuk ke lokasi kejadian.  apa tu triage? triage adalah satu team yang akan classify severity of the injury based on tagging red (severe), yellow (immediate) green (less injury) and black/white (dead). based on tagging from the triage team, paramedic akan utamakan bagi bantuan kecemasan kepada yang kes yang kritikal dulu. then team transporter akan masuk untuk transport the victims to the hospital sementara yang di buat berdekatan dengan area disaster. yang bertag hitam transporter or paramedic takkan bother sebab tu kerja polis untuk angkut mayat keluar dari kawasan kejadian. aha? nampak macam simple? tp ada juga orang yg ditugaskan sebgai orang awam dan media yang cuba menceroboh masuk ke dalam kawasan kejadian dan cuba menyukarkan kerja-kerja pihak berkuasa untuk menyelamatkan mangsa dalam keadaan yang huru-hara tu.

hahaha my role? I became one of the casualties. what did I have? I got a skull fracture with massive loss of blood, leading to hypovolaemia and with low pulse and normal respiratory rate but barely able to breathe. mental status; confused. so what tag do I get? hahahaha! obviously IT IS RED TAG!

hahaha korang yg takpaham ape setengah term tu mohon faham-faham jelah. 

okay korang boleh tengok video liputan simulasi kejadian tu kt sini.

news coverage from Cariu Camp, DRM CUCMS-UNISBA 2013

hahahaha. epic. 

seterusnya hari terakhir kami keesokan harinya dihabiskan dengan berbelanja ke Tanah Abang dan memutar sekitar Taman Mini Indonesia Indah. kali ini pertama kali duduk dihadapan bersebelahan driver trak 3 tan. hahahah. teruja! sempat belajar bagaimana mahu menari Tarian Saman, Manuk Dadali, serta sedikit word dari bahasa Jawa dan Sunda pada hari terakhir sebelum berpisah dengan pelajar dari UNISBA. yang terakhir sekali, berbalas pantun,

Buah Mangga, Buah Kedondong
Minta nomor teleponnya dong?
hahahahaha. epic.
I had a great time there. terima kasih Bogor. :)

me with Fuji, cap exchanging with UNISBA student. 

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this is us!!!!

best memang best. rindu kawan-kawan UNISBA. tapi disasternya muka aku tuhan je tahu. dah hitam woii. hahahaha. balik dari Malaysiaaaa ada final exam for DRM block the following week.

at the same timee....


back to preparation Pro Exam yang makin dekat tinggal berapa hari je lagi buat countdown kasi cuak kecut perut. (gastric atony.. bahahaha!). sebenarnya, preparation ni dah lama dah buat... achewahh nak claim kata bakal distinction lah tu. hahaha. bukan-bukan. memang aku dah tubuhkan satu study group untuk buat revision sama-sama menjelang 1st Professional Exam ni. exam bulan Jun, tapi preparation aku dah start buat since bulan Februari. agak terlambat lah jugak. (well group aku dikira agak terlambat lah berbanding sesetengah orang yang dah start forming group end of December tahun lepas or awal tahun 2013 hari tu) untuk review all the system and topics yang dah belajar selama 2 tahun ni. buat yang tak tahu, Professional Exam adalah antara exam utama bagi student-student perubatan sepanjang 5 tahun kursus medik ni.  depends kepada medical school nak buat pro exam ni tahun bila. yang pasti akan ada 2 atau 3 pro exam secara keseluruhan. macam CUCMS ni ,dia ada 2 professional exam. 1st PE masa 2nd year. 2nd PE masa 5th year. tapi yang bikin cuaknyaa....

kalau taklepas pro exam ni kau jangan harap lah nak naik 3rd year then pergi clinical masuk hospital apa semua. kau repeat lah balik 2nd year tu amik next pro exam tahun depan pulak.. aiyokkk scary. 

sekarang pakcik tengah mogok taknak text sebab nak suruh makcik study katenyer. kekekekeke. *dia suruh study aku pergi blogging kan.. pandai..pandaiii -_- *

ok la back to study mood. mohon korang doakan yer nak exam ni. ciao!

post istimewa buat sang doktor pencinta adiwira samudera vs meroyan week

lately, makin dah kenal bakal-bakal doktor yang bercinta dengan tentera, precisely tentera laut.

seronok pula kenal. accidentally while blog walking.

yang paling muda, of course it me lah! hehehe~

dorang pun dah dekat-dekat nak final year and so do their partner... mesti dah commisioned and in service.

dah banyak jumpa blog military partner, but what attract me most is yg of course lah yg 'sekapal' dengan I, ala-ala feeling lebih gitew. not to be biased. it's just a pleasure you feel the same thing when entitiled as a navy partner and medical student at the same time. to know their side of story, their experiences... well of course somehow it differs a lot. p/s: yg military partner yg bukan doctor jangan lah terasa tau. maksud saya, kalau dapat yang sesama nasib, tu lg feeling..macam cikgu dengan cikgu, lebih serasi gitewww hahaah!

*tak habis2 word feeling aku -___-*

sebelum tu, nak share le sikit kisah mak sedara aku yg sorang ni. dia ni bini navy. seboleh-bolehnya aku taknak dia tahu yang aku ni berkawan dengan navy jugak. kang ada je lahhh yang dia nak korek-korek. eh helo..sangatlah tak best okay. tapi ada sekali tu pergi Lumut, (rumah dia lah kat dalam base tu), tetiba terburst la pulak cerita *mulut adik aku la yang tertelan ulat bulu nih, gatal je mulut tu nak bercerita*... and confirm la dia dah tahu!

aku diamkan ajeeeeee. malas ahhh nak melayan. 

pakwe aku bukannya commisioned lagi pun nak bising-bising bagai.

pastu dia cakap

"Kak long, (in which dia adress aku) , kalau kak long xdak calon lg, mau je **** nak kenal-kenalkan kak long dengan ada sorang Lt. Dya ni. dok mencari calon. kot-kot le mahu...tp kalau hendak juge boyfren kak long tu, lambat lagi nak habih belajar...tunggu leeee" *gelak-gelak*

perghhh panas gua dengar. ngalahkan gua ni anak dia pulak lah kannnnn~

sebok jelahhhh. 

haihhh marah beteii beb... naseb baik mak aku counter-attack balik

"nak kalut apaaa la ***** oi... berkurun lagi budak tu nak habis ngaji. biaq lah study dulu bg habih...sok ni kawin juga dengan navy kalau ada rezeki. pangkat pun sama jugak la... doa jelahhh"

dia ingat aku ni hadap pangkat sangat agaknya. tak menyempat nak suruh aku kahwin bagai..eii sumpah menyirapppp~

study anat pun menyemput lagik...sebok nak arrange aku suruh kahwinnnnn~. ergh nyampah iolssss

ok dah, habis.yay! *insert bunyi tepuk tangan here. LOL*

currently tengah menyemput belajar Reproductive block. ohnomnomnom. 

ada mid course assessment this coming Friday. 

si dia kat kem tu pun tengah prepare untuk final sem agaknya...

banyak esaimen, banyak benda kot nak disettlekan..sampai aku dibinitirikan.

wakakaka.

iyer boleh leteww.

eh awak, tahniah yer Eco Challenge hari tu, batalion awak dapat Batalion Diraja and you were a part of the team! yeahhh sooo proud of youuuuu! gagahnyaaaa tengok awak usung tayar Land Rover! rindu pindewww~

to kak Liyana Halim and Jannah the Nanny, cam best lah kenal korang! ehe~. looking forward to meroyan secara berjemaah yer nanti! :P

p/s: ni post vent out jer. nothing else matter.

till then ciao! ti amo arrivederci~ <3>

61days of October and November

Assalamualaikum and greetings my dearest blog reader.

It's Sunday. 

1st Sunday in December. date pun cantik haa 02/12/12. 

banyak nyerrrr dua. my favourite number. ehe

wuhoo.

hahah

intro tak berkeyakinan langsung.

ehem.. agakla. dua bulan lebih tak ada masa nak update blog.

sibuk sikit. last 2 months banyak event.

dengan subjek a bit heavy, sampaikan takde masa.

ada juga a few readers entah mana jumpa link FB account aku siap PM suruh update blog. 

alololo...terharu sekejap. ihiks. *insert gediks tone here*

ni pun ikutkan curi curi masa je update haa. minggu ni ada final block Nervous System. 

okay mari kita melirik segala aktiviti Oktober dan November sehingga ke hari ini.

last 2 month merupakan bulan yang sungguh padat dan mencabar minda dan stamina juga kerana terlalu banyak event.

we'll go by months la yer.

O.C.T.O.B.E.R

block pada bulan Oktober merupakan block sangat menarik. Gastrointestinal System a.k.a GIT. selepas Respiration System. 

dalam block ni basically belajar pasal sistem penghadaman manusia. *well obviouslah kan, apa yang kau nak expect lg?

dan dalam block ni la kali pertama terkena gastritis! uwarghh rasa nak berkuntau je bila sakit ni. semua kerja jem tak leh jalan. dah la masa tu nak dekat Midcourse. serius dah risau tak boleh study, makanya boleh jahanamlah carry mark ke final kalau xboleh score betul-betul. tp alhamdulillah, dalam masa 3 hari aku dah okay balik, sempat study sikit je. memang masuk exam habis tawakal lah. tapi alhamdulillah marks okay. syukur. Allah tolong dengan izinNya. 

lepas exam jer, perut pun dah okay sikit, saje memanjakan perut ke Seoul Garden kat IOI Puchong. kekekekeke~

                                           

eat while you can't get fat!!!! LOL

oh ye tahu apa tu gastritis? kalau dalam bahasa yang orang selalu sebut tu..alaaa...yang gastrik gastrik tu laa. asal sakit perut masuk angin sebab skip makan, orang cakap kena gastrik leteww. but to correct, it's not gastric. it's what we call gastritis. gastric dalam medical line tu sebenarnya 'perut.' memang la kan semua orang ada gastrik, tapi tak semua orang ada gastritis. faham?

sama juga macam appendicitis. tu maksudnya dia ada sakit appendiks. ni orang keep cakap "appendik, appendik" salah tu.  appendiks tu semua orang ada, cuma bezanya bila orang yang sakit appendiks tu kita kata dia ada appendicitis.

nak bagitahu...so that korang yang from non medical line boleh berlagak sikit tahu term medical...

kalau ada perkataan yang berakhir dengan "tis", itu bermaksud organ/bahagian tersebut telah terkena inflammation. kalau istilah bahasa melayu baku aku, inflammation ni keradangan. *pejadahnyelah kerengsaan*

so,

bronchitis = radang paru-paru

gingivitis = radang gusi

conjuctivitis = radang mata

rhinitis = radang hidung

arthritis= radang sendi

praktis = ?

jawapannya : makes perfect. wakakakaka. okay taklawak sangat.

tu aku saje nak melawak, tapi tak jadi.

okay, that weekend lepas exam... ada BLS School Tour ke SMK Dengkil. in which depan rumah aku sewa je. macam biasa. this time tak jaga station baby dah, jaga adult CPR. :)

mannequin yang bertuah dapat 1st kiss dari aku pagi itu yer..kehkehkeh~

mannequin yang pasran dicium aku untuk CPR. wakakakak~

demonstration of choking Charlie. they are performing abdominal thrust.

 malam sebelum tu,sempat lagi aku together dengan kakak usrah aku, pergi rumah Dr Fuad untuk hadir kuliah fiqh perubatan dia dengan wife dia. sebelum tu dah grab buku ni kat MPH. serius menarik. banyak topik yang boleh dibincangkan. I think somehow it's good in  preparing me to become a good Muslim medical practitioner soon. bukan apa, study medik is one thing, but at the same time kena sync together dengan keperluan dan selari dengan hukum syarak. takdelah kan jadi doktor yang buta-buta je yang practice tapi kena juga amik tahu pasal perihal fikah yang berkaitan dengan bidang perubatan yang xramai orang tahu/ ambil mudah.

Fikah Perubatan. RM22

bulan ni jugak aku telah menjadi volunteer untuk training Basic Life Support untuk pelajar fakulti perubatan Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM).  

at first, I was rasa a bit inferior la kan. sebab diorang ni pelajar dah 4th, 5th year... while me baru 2nd year tapi kena ajar diorang untuk proper asas pertolongan kecemasan. sebelum ni buat dengan budak-budak sekolah je bila ikut BLS School Tour, takpelah. kalau kelentongkeletong pun takde hal. *eh tak tak tak bukan nak kata sebelum ni banyak kelentong, but yeah bila dah deal dengan orang yang lebih berilmu tentang medicine, dah posting dalam pelbagai bidang dalam perubatan, jadi kredibitli a bit tercabar lah. sebab diorang lebih tahu banyak benda.

but it went well and smoothly alhamdulillah. :)

and Allah's miracle... masa ni lah terjumpa semula kawan lama yang hampir 6 tahun tak jumpa sejak pindah MRSM from SMK Sultan Badlishah, Wafiuddin Rujhan. He's a 3rd year medical student of UPM. single or taken taknak amik tahu, tapi dia dah banyak berubah la. badan dah built up sikit. hahaha!

kebetulan dia datang untuk training Sunathon under Sunathon committee.

me and wafi :)

towards the end of October, I attended the Sunathon course. oh buat yang tak tahu, Sunathon refers kepada program berkhatan beramai-ramai. this is CUCMS tradition through a program macam community services every year buat kat seluruh Malaysia in which we Le Tour De..... for my batch, we've done 2 programs so far, Sunatour Senawang (YR1) and Le Tour de Ketereh (YR2)

since nak pergi LTD Ketereh in next November and masa year 1 dulu tak amik course Sunathon ni, saja nak try. bukan apa..dulu i have this kind of fear. takut melihat bendalah tu... erk? pelik kan.. tak kisah la kecik besar ke.. tapi still benda tu memang buat aku fobia. entah kenapa.. 

tapi bila dah naik 2nd year, terfikir pulak macam rugi kalau tak rebut peluang ni. CUCMS student dapat training free, orang lain kena bayar kot. plus, masa ni la nak cari pengalaman baru. tapi serius la, nak follow course ni memang a bit strict. training, theory and practical leads to exam both theory and practical exam.  lagi pulak orang yang ada masalah anxiety macam aku ni, memang problematic lah sket.

me with the kidney dish. kalau terer dalam tu ada apa? cuba teka? hehehe~

time ni tengah buat tyre suture.

basically dalam proses Sunathon training ada Local Anesthesia (bius), Clean and Drape (bersihkan penis dari smegma yang berada pada celahan kulit dan gland using gauze and saline, sterilized by using iodine and drape) , Skin Suture (basic teknik suturing) and Tyre Suture (to mantapkan skill menjahit suture kulit lebihan setelah dipotong) . macam gambar kat atas tu, atas span tu skin suture while another one is tyre suture. 

itu sajaa untuk Oktober. memang dalam masa ni pun sibuk prepare untuk final GIT.

N.O.V.E.M.B.E.R

Finally arrived with Nervous System a.k.a CNS!! trrr~

finally got my lab coat with written name there. :))

oh ye, Dengkil hujan lebat kot. sampai depan rumah banjir. kawasan taman permainan tetiba bertukar jadi tasik. pagi air naik ni, kau ada medical check up program under IKRAM Putrajaya ke Kuala Pilah, Negeri Sembilan. masa ni 1st week CNS. since 2nd week tu takde exam midcourse then terus cuti seminggu lepas cuti baru exam, maka a bit relax lah weekend tu. takde kalut-kalut sangat.

then masa 1week cuti tu, memang tak terasa langsung. nama je seminggu. tapi 2/3 cuti tu dihabiskan untuk travel Cyber-Kelantan. 1/3 cuti je sempat habiskan kat Kedah. and it's my birthday!!! tapi macam sedih lah sebab tak dapat celeb dengan seaman, dia ada kerja. grrr~ padahal dah janji nak pergi jenjalan... geram betul.

tapi takpelah, nasib baik ada cik misi Adila. kehkehkeh... dapat dia belanja BR lagi on my birthday!!!

officially 21!!!

from 13-17 November I was in Ketereh, Kelantan. doing our program.

scenario in the Sunathon Operation Theater. in  this program, 1st time ever in my life, I manage to do complete suture on two boys!!!!! *bunga api letop-letop* and aku berjaya mengatasi perasaan takut aku untuk berdepan dengan benda tu. pegang pun mula-mula rasa takut tapi lama-lama dah okay. :)

all together ada 108 patients yang berjaya dikhatankan on that day.

alhamdulillah, everything running smoothly as planned.

meet my ex-classmate in KMS, Baitul Izzah. :)

all in all it was a success, i really miss my time in Ketereh. this is my CUCMS family. :)

balik dari Ketereh, rush up to Seremban, meeting my Mak... my IB Malay A1 teacher, Ms Azizah. I called her Mak. 

miss her very the muchhhh!!!

 pulang ke Cyberjaya semula, get ready to embrace the Midcourse exam. memang sekali ni all out study, disebabkan cuti yang seminggu tu memang nota langsung tak besentuh ke apa-apa, sampai lepas kelas pun aku stay back kat kolej sampai malam untuk study bermati-matian.

memang bertapa lah kat library tuuu~ 

sepah!

alhamdulillah... all in all the midcourse was fine, though perasan juga a da a few question tu memang silly gila boleh salah, it's okay, i will cover it back during the finall this week.  but this time ada OSCE jugak, for motor and sensory examination, main ketuk-ketuk guna tendon hammer untuk buat reflex!

after the midcourse, the following weekend ada Wataniah.. join flood rescue kat Banting. 

Wataniah CUCMS.

since air banjir dan surut dan dalam rumah kebanyakan rumah dah dibersihkan dari lumpur-lumpur, aku  dengan a few budak wataniah lain just tolong clear compound je

14 Kompeni Medan Perubatan. Kor Kesihatan Diraja.

Lt Muda Dr Nurlisa Kamal.

*ah berangan mungkin? :P

us. CUCMS Wataniah people.

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eh?

special thanks buat si dia yang sangat memahami keterujaan aku untuk join segala mak nenek benda kat kampus. mengorbankan masa weekend, sanggup beri keizinan aku mengenepikan dia *hehehehe* 

missing as always. padahnya bila stuck in navy-medical student relationship is not easy.

keep faith. keep strong. as always. chin up,and smile!

jumpa lagi di lain post ya!

buh-byeee~

pre-peri-post of Raya! :D

salam and greeting people.
I bet it is never too late to wish everyone Happy Eid Mubarak.
guess what, I hate when there too many things too tell yet I'm busy doing lots of thinggggsss??
*why there's so many THINGGS in my previous sentence? HAHAHA!

actually...I'm enjoying my Raya to the fullest, bake some cookies for my dearest family and future in laws...cooking for open house at home, changing my braces band to daring red, *hewhewhew :3, Raya cuti ends, proceed with the classes. the classes were too pack, haematology is getting on my nerves always, never be nice. and the mangsa?
of course my dearest seaman, He's my dearest punching bag. LOL

okay, to begin with.. I'll start chronologically from the Raya night.

#Raya eve

aha, my raya? it was splendid. but the journey to go back to Kedah a day before Raya strikes was entirely full of drama. to conclude, I'm actually almost get a mini heart-attack when there is no radio taxi/public transport i could call for me to go to the bus station from my house and nobody left at home since everyone has going back for raya, I'm the last person to leave the house, empty house side by side, and I'm desperately to look for people who are willing to send me to the bus station! but eventually thanks to my classmate, Hazim Onn who being my Raya savior. kalau tidak, memang bertakbirlahh aku sensorang kat rumah sewa ni tak balik rayaaa.huu sdeyyy~

Alhamdulillah, after 6 hour on the road, the traffic was quite smooth I reached home, safely and still sound at 3pm in the morning, was zombie-ing finding for my bed and sleep like a dead log and when I woke up during Fajr he texted me, as he always did on Raya day..

"Jangan lupa mandi sunat raya tau budak comot. :)"
"Ok la berlemoihhhhhh~"

#1st day of Raya, going back to Perak. 

#2nd day of Raya, dash off to Penang.

#3rd day, went to visit my grand uncle who were warded in Hospital Raja Permaisuri Bainun, Ipoh :)

#4th day, back to Kedah. this is one of the best thing ever happen this Eid. he came to my house, to meet my dad :)

the moment he came into my house, my dad and him talked bout Navy things. let me remind you, non stop talking and this is the first time they met! and some of the terms that I didn't familiar with, including divers and bla.. bla.. bla.. IDK what it is, but to listen to their conversation just pleased me as it seems. I'm quite surprised cuz Ayah won't simply talk with someone unless they've got something in common to talk with. and I guess, they've found out the similarities and I rate it... NOT BAD.

I saw he flipped through the photo album that Ayah showed him. pictures when he's still in Navy service sailing to Italy about 15 years ago. 

senyum jelah menengok Ayah dengan dia bersembang that day, rasa macam boleh masuk je. dia pun melayannn jerrr~ :P *macam terpaksa sebab ayah macam teruja bersembang. hahaha!

insyaAllah, hopefully, more to come. :)

#5th day, the making of hazelnut buttercookies. 355 pieces! these are for my future in laws family. :) kak long request sebab cakap sedap! hihihi~

#6th day, went back to MRSM Kubang Pasu, looking for beloved and lovely teachers. what a day.

#7th day, cooking for open house. mee kari. heww. and my hazelnut buttercookies are cleared! wuuuu~

#8th day, went to Sg Petani Orthodontic Clinic to see my dentist.

 blue band is transformed to be daring red... andd... ta-daaaa!

then straight away going back to land of Selangor. :)

#a week after raya story

it is not cool to know that 60 out of the 86 students failed the Mid Course Haematology held on the last day before we going back for Raya holiday..indeeeddddddd, this course is a bit challenging * a lottt actuallyyy. ohh nooo Lisa is exaggerating!, packed lecture, hard to understand and I mistakenly take Haematology for granted since its only a 3week course, and phewww...as expected, I'm one of the failure listed. :/ moral down satu hariiiiii. lepastu episod emo dengan seaman pun bermulaaaa~

kesian everytime aku nak emo je mesti dia jadi punching bag. hahaha!

then he said 

" takpaaa, final pulun study sampai lebam okay? kalau boleh buat saya belanja makan aiskrim BR. nak?" hewhewhew :3

okay nak, satu pint punya. boleh?

nak tibai sensoranggg~ kuikuikui tamak.

lepastu gemokkk pun sensoranggg.kbai.

then goes my Final Course Haematology last Thursday.

indeed I hate this week cuz I have to struggle myself studying like the world is going to end tomorrow... okay, exaggerating againnn~ -_____________- cuz usually we'll be having exams on Friday but since the national Day falls on Friday, Friday is off. the exam is on Thursday. totally hate it. 

urghhhh. done.

then last but not least, on 31st of August,

Happy 55th Independence Day of Malaysia! :D

Terima Kasih Perwiraku!

  

let this picture speaks a thousand words. :)

okay, that's all for now. 

gotta geared up soon cuz my seaman is coming to pick me for a family function.

bye peeps!

have a nice weekend people!

haematology love-hate

salam and greeting readers, I really wanna update my blog since last weekend, but life is just too busy to handle with and to be settled, cuz I just moved into a new house.well aware of it, I'll just briefly write.

my journey as a 2nd year MBBS student of CUCMS has just started last week. Alhamdulillah. starting with Haematology block, in which I'll be dealing stuff regarding blood disorders like leukeamia, thalassemia, haemophilia and anaemia, *just to name a few. since it is only a 3week course, and isn't that easy, the lectures are quite packed. Incoming the Clinical Skills Training, Pengajian Islam as well as I'll be joining Wataniah in this sem as my extra co-curricular activities. herm, still asking for opinion but seems like Wataniah is the only option left, other than joining the Young MERCY *in which i didn't have interest in it that much.

this week is the 2nd week of Haematology, and a mid-course assessment on Friday which is today,*I had my exam this morning before we're going for our Raya break. all I can say.. I've done my best and let God do the rest.

Imagine... I've been spending half of my fasting month at home, and the new semester re-open just in the middle of this Holy month, have to go back to college for two weeks, *in which I'm very half-hearted to come back...sit for the mid-course exam while everyone is busying themselves to prepare for Raya, and I can only go back to my hometown on the Raya eve, a night before Raya strikes. what do you expect?

Pathetic.

being a medical student ain't that easy.
or is it being me ain't that easy?

I guess, I'll go for the second one.


anyhow...
he's back from Alpha Routine.
48 days deployment.
for a starter, for a 1st timer.
I'm proud of myself I've come until this far.
at least, it prepares me for far more worst condition in the future.
yeah.. it awaits me.
I guess he prepares me well not to pampered me too much of lots of spending time together, and thus, when he's away.. I didn't feel lost that much. I survived.
plus I believe in one quote ; distance only makes your heart grow fonder.
hey You, thank you. (:


I had an ifthar with him today. before he goes back to his hometown for Raya break.
just a few hours, and splendidly I treasure and try not to miss out any second or any moment of it.
I miss him so much.
while passing by the PICC (Putrajaya International Convention Centre), I said

- nanti saya grad kat sini la.
- bila?
- somewhere end of 2016.
- nak saya datang ke?
-*nodded*
- saya dah naik kapal mungkin time tu...

herm. what a price to pay.

up until today, I don't know why. sometimes. I just can't have the life like the other normal girls.
especially when I'm already stuck in a Navy-Medical Student relationship.
tough man.
it's been always like

-cuti berselisih.
-dia free, aku pulak exam.
-dia busy training, aku pulak free goyang kaki.
-i don't have much time to bergayut, or borak berjam-jam on the phone like the other always did. cuz sometimes i will feel rasa bersalah bila masa study aku guna untuk bergayut, or masa tu aku boleh buat something yang lebih berfaedah.
- and thank God, he hates Skype soo much! haha! <--- time saver!

even for my Mid-course assessment ni, punya laaa dilemma nak decide, nak keluar dengan dia tu kejappp je. hati malaikat cakap kena balik cepat-cepat sebab aku nak balik study, and even during the iftaar, makan depan dia aku selak notes. macam biasa. hati syaithon cakap, nak stay lama lagi sebab lama tak jumpaaaa.

but I rather choose the first opt. and even he understand me wanna study for the exam. :)

ironically, no matter what happen.I choose to stay. not to leave him.
cuz for me, I'll never give up or surrender until at least my suffering is paid off.
God fate?
yeah I decide, and Allah let it happen.


until when? I don't know. I'll rest my case to God.


I miss home now. seriously.
to all readers, Happy Eidulfitri.
may all of you have the best Eid with your family and your loved ones.

bye peeps.
:)

a year.

(this post is kinda private. since this is my blog. I'm free to write things inside it. no hard feelings or being criticized by others as you're the one who choose to read bout this post. if you don't feel like doing so, feel free to click "Alt+F4" button on your keyboard). 

last June 25th, marked my journey with him. a year. being a military partner.

All praises to God, cuz we've come this far. at least for a year we've made it. 

cuz some people used to say: I think they're not gonna make it.

but Allhamdulillah, despite of thousands of words that go against us...

we still going strong, and even each day by day...

my love towards him keeps growing and he's the one...in whom all my respect goes to. 

I bet this is from the bless of our family and friends. who always make a du'a for us.

a part of yours too lovely readers~ :)

(if you happen to read and pray for us laa kan.. LOL)

I used to think that age is one of the barrier factor. a very explicit one.

frankly said, he's a year younger than me. 

And that is the strongest reason why I think in the first place, 

I don't have full confidence that this is going to work.

He came to my life all by sudden, a very abrupt one.

once he proposed, he didn't asked me to be his girlfriend..

"are u willing to spend the rest of your life with me?

grow old with me?"

I nodded. agreed and let the flows come. and bring us together.

but after knowing his for quite some time, I think... so far he's the most matured guy that I ever met.

thus gone my hypothesis, age is just a number. 

the fact is, how you handle your life deters to which extend you can look up onto your life.

being with him...

I can never expected a lovey dovey thing from him. a very stern man.

He did care,but seems he didn't know how to show it that much. 

he just a type like that.

not a very expressive one, in which totally vice versa with me.

even to see him smiling, that's a very rare to find.

texts and calls... wasn't a main duty for me. 

he still in his junior year when i first meet him and being with him..

in which i do learn a lot. countless thing. we made our pace together.

more to come.

grow up to be strong girl, entitled as a navy daughter used to teach me... 

and thought that I'm bold enough to be with him.

by thought and claiming myself.. how I understand this military life enough.

i do expect some consequences..cuz I live with it.

for sure,

i'll never be able to spend a lot of time with him like others did with their partner.

i will not have a lot of chances to meet him due to his work.

i have to bear with all the changes and plan that might be cancel.. the very last minute.

but one thing that I'm sure still I can't figure it out how up until now...

is how much my mental will be strong enough all of these things?

the reality is, it was beyond my imagination.

I did cry, for almost all the times. almost give up.

but he's there to hold me and give his best support for me to lean on.

never leave me, always have faith in me and put a very high trust on me.

along the way.. I bet there are some times...

he know that not all women are meant for this. some may have quit. and walked away with another guy.

he know that this girl might look up for someone else that may always available for her.

he know that those possibilities are there.

he never give me any conditions to live with. 

as everything is under my control. my right to do whatever I wanted.

he charmed me with feelings of responsibility.

life and love isn't always a bed of roses.

isn't always full with lots of sweet things.

but once he really show me how much he loved me,

once I know that he did something just for my sake 

and i didn't know bout it and keep blaming him all the way,

i have nothing but tears to respond.

he willingly introduce me to his family... to show how much he wants this relationship seriously.

warmly welcomed by his family, was one of the best thing ever happen in my life.

getting used to his nephews and nieces, surrounded by the siblings.

what more i could asked?

happiness.

indeed, always remind me and guided me to be his wife, though he's not perfect,

but his imperfectness completes me.

all these while...what i can see is his true colors.

when he's angry. yes, he'll show that he's angry.

when he's not in the mood, yeah there you go.. expect the unexpected. 

being scolded? yeah been there too.

talking in a very harsh mode? done that as well.

for short, he is a very predictable man.

but I rarely and seldomly understand him that much.

cuz I failed to read his mind.

and I need to think of myself whenever he talk and 'lectures' me.

and after a year of nurturing me...

I've become a better person, stronger than before and still hold on where I should belong to.

To MNI,

thank you for the love and the affection you had given me. 

thank for bear with this stubborn, childish girl up until now.

hope we get more blessing and Allah ease our way.

and tomorrow... my real deployment begins.
he's away to Lumut for a few weeks.

 people easily said, he'll be away for just a little time only.don't act like you'll never see him again.

but no contact at all, I could do nothing but keep and non-stop praying.

O Allah, The Most Merciful..The Most Benevolent,

keep him safe in Your protection.

make easy of his duty, make him strong and safely return.

give him the best that within his capability.

AMIN. 

He asked me to promised him. 

to wait until he come back.

I will.

InsyaAllah.

"Sayang, ada jodoh kita jumpa lagi." <-------- this is the favorite quote. 

each time when we waves goodbye to each other.

i'll wait for you.

here.

patiently.

the end.